Where do we go from here? All of these years have been welling up to break through in a storm. Emotions too strong to be contained, a heart beating uncontrollably.
Where is my God, I used to wonder.. abandon was a word I used to describe Him. But I didn't know Him.. and I still don't. Each day I question His love and seclude Him to my selfish, inconsistent thoughts.. Today I'm an orphan, left alone to fend for myself.. screaming out to be saved by a Father who never wanted me. My throat runs dry and my eyes can cry no more.
Who is my Father?
Who am I to dictate who my God is? It's my fallen soul that screams out lies and drowns the truth with its ugly shrieks.
Who is my Father?
My Father is true. He is love in the purest form and will never leave me. He has saved me countless times, shielded and protected me from the afflictions of the Enemy. He has lifted me up, poured purity into my heart, and set my soul free. My heart beats for Him alone and I will keep pressing forward and learning to fight alongside Him. He goes before me, sending angels, preparing the way and keeping my path safe. He is a promise, truth, and life in the fullest. Who would push away a Father like Him? Who could ever question His character? He is knocking, always knocking but it's a choice to let Him in.
Today I choose to let go of my orphan mentality and hold tight to the truth that my Father is near, holding me in His arms and comforting me from the storm.
Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in. Revelation 3:20
